thoughts

Yesterday morning was a rough one, but had some soft spots.  Jacob woke up sick and decided to throw up all over the carpet, stairs and bathroom.  He did try to make it to the toilet, but a 5 year old who hasn't thrown up in a few years tends to forget how far the bathroom really is.  After that mess was cleaned up multiple times, I managed to solidify some plans for our trip to Salt Lake in a little over 2 weeks.  My brother is getting married and we are all going.  I was loving how great everything was working out. 

Then Ethan, who is recently potty trained, pulled me into the bathroom to show me a puddle on the floor.  No, he was not the cause of the puddle.  The pipe that my washing machine drains in to was clogged and water was all over the place and seeping under the walls.  Luckily it only took $3.47 to solve that problem and my washing machine is hard at work again! 

The girls were asked to sing in church on Sunday.  We've been practicing with a friend of mine and the girls were supposed to walk to her house tomorrow and practice, but it turns out that she was placed on bed rest today and won't be going anywhere.  PANIC!  Luckily I know several women who are talented an know how to play the piano.  Crisis averted and I'm sure they will do fine on Sunday!

There are other things that seem to turn life upside down.  I'm not looking forward to see what they are.  I open my mouth to express how happy I was that everything was working out and then wrenches start flying!    I think that this happens because I lose focus on what is important.  It's not about what or why things are happening, but how I handle these rough spots. 

I panic pretty easily.  I get an upset stomach and rather grouchy.  I'm not fun to be around when there are bumps in the road.  Lately I've had to learn to let go of some of the control.  Some decisions were made for me and all I could do was cope with it.  I learned to let go of that control and things weren't so bothersome.  But now some things are totally up to me and I'm not sure if I learned my lesson well enough.  I hope I did. 

I know this may seem like a long ramble, but I'm getting my thoughts out.  Anyway, here's to a less bumpy road in the next coming weeks and months.